Scared to be her and scared to be me
Is this how I am always going to be?
My least favorite emotion to possess
To it she refuses to ever confess
Confident she will always appear to be
Happiness is the emotion for me
That’s the only girl you’ll ever see,
Hiding away her insecurities
Always confident and always strong
Never faulting, almost never wrong
But secretly drowning and silently crying
Inside of her, I am slowly dying
Never at peace, never at rest
Wanting better, to be the best
Maybe she is all I can be
There’s no other path I can see
But to continue happy, always lying
Secretly weeping, wishing, crying
Struggling to survive
Still wanting to be alive
Wishing for freedom
Maybe one day it’ll come
Keeping the pieces of me sane
While she portrays who you think I am
